It's the little things.

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I have a lot of friends who are very important.
They run their own companies and travel all over the place. They do speaking engagements and have high-profile clients they do brilliant work for.
Actually, I guess I’m just thinking of Gini Dietrich. She’s great. And probably the busiest person I know.
Since I left my full-time job about six months ago, some might say I own my own business, but really, I’m just trying to scrape together enough work to pay my bills. I spend the rest of my time just trying to prove I’m not a total waste of oxygen.
Oh, and get dates. (Which is another discussion for another time, but here’s a preview: No, it’s not going well.)

Even on my busiest days, I still find plenty of time to read people’s blogs, write idiotic tweets about the fact that I’m going to see Just Bieber: Never Say Never (tonight! […don’t judge me]) and take pictures of my new kitten.
But trust me when I say that screwing around on the Internet is not the same as taking time out of the day to live. Relax.
Shrug off the feelings of creeping isolation and feel like I’m actually part of the world.

Why yes, those are socks with flowers on them.

When I was still working in the suburbs, hating my life, I would spiral into this soul-crippling rage as I steered the Shining Camry back to the city. Because I’d spent the whole day living out my slow, painful death in Arlington Heights.
And, inevitably, the traffic would jam up around Park Ridge. (Oh, how I do not miss that life.) Instead of pulling over and stabbing a pedestrian — not that there would have been many to choose from — I turned the radio to the classic station and just…breathed it in. Instead of sending irate texts at stoplights, I closed my eyes for a few seconds and remembered that there was more to life than my horrific commute.
Little things like that made all the difference. They always have.

Fast-forward to the present: I’ve had a REALLY awful past couple of days. Related in equal parts to the above statements about the creeping isolation of freelance life and date-getting.
And for a most of that time, I wallowed. Until I realized that’s not the kind of person I want to be: the kind who stays in bed until 11 a.m., the kind who eats her feelings in the form of four meals a day (plus snacks), the kind who writes hundreds of thinly veiled tweets a day about her problems.
Today, I got out of bed and took my life back in tiny increments.
I made a to-do list and attacked it.
I ate a nice lunch and played with my kitten — just to play with her, not to take pictures I could tweet later.
I rode my bike to the Gap and browsed the sale rack, tried on jeans and found a pair that actually fit. I bought socks covered in tiny flowers.
I called my mother as my laptop booted up. I had a few extra minutes, because my computer is a piece of crap.
Inside the café, one of three little girls who had been running around for half an hour marched right up to me, twirled her cup proudly in her hands said, “This has coffee in it!”
By the time I was halfway through my iced tea, I was in love with the world again.
Then again, it doesn’t take a lot for me. But it’s not so much the effort it takes as it is remembering how wonderful it feels when I make it.

February is half over, and spring is on its way. There’s always time to fall in love with the world.

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20 Responses to “It's the little things.”

  1. Gini Dietrich Says:

    LOL on your intro! HA!

    I remember this feeling when I left my agency and didn’t know that I wanted to build a company (that came about two years later). It was awful. I didn’t see people. I ran at lunchtime (which was awesome) but then stayed in my sweaty running clothes while I worked well into the evening. I came to the same conclusion you’ve come to – I had to get out of the house. So I joined a PRSA committee and started getting involved in the industry. I went to networking meetings. I got myself one office in a large ad agency. I was in the back by the storage closet. I loved it. Then I hired an intern and we shared a desk. It was awesome!

    I tell you all of this to say, this is normal. And you’re on the right track. Heck! You have a sponsored blog post – you’re monetizing where some of us (cough, me) are not!

    If you ever want to come to our offices for day (even once a week), I won’t charge you rent. You are more than welcome to a desk and a phone! And people.

    • Paige Worthy Says:

      When the weather warms up, Gini, I will absolutely take you up on that.
      And, all joking aside — you are an inspiration to me!!

    • Anonymous Says:

      I second Paige – you are an inspiration. It does not matter to me that I have not yet had the opportunity to meet you in person. I have learned so much from you and I count it a blessing that I am even one of your 10 billion Twitter friends that you dialogue with (even if all we do is screw around and make each other laugh!)

  2. Viaggiatore Says:

    Gini’s right about everything of course, so I won’t reiterate all of that… I will say that the past few days have reminded me that the universe rewards hard work, and that I adore you… almost as much as I love Crystal Light white grape flavor. See? I adore your sponsors, too.

  3. Andrea Memenas Says:

    Paige – Everything about you tells me you will be more than fine. You do have your own business and you are making it work. Everyone needs to start somewhere. But, being an independent business owner myself, I know what you mean. It’s hard to get motivated and easy to get lost in all of the possibilities. Stick with it. Nothing worthwhile comes easy.

    And, the Bieber movie? Well, it’s awesome. I saw it Saturday. I even freakin’ cried at the end. Yes, I admit it. I did.

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  5. GeoffieTheKid Says:

    Crystal Light rules. When I was cutting most of the carbs out of my diet, CL and Jell-O were the only two things keeping me sane when I was going through carb withdrawal. CL Lemonade and string cheese.

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  6. Leslie Banks Says:

    I love this post Paige! I love the phrase, “… took my life back in tiny increments.” That’s the spirit sister! One of my mom’s little inspiration points: Question: “How do you eat an elephant?” Answer: “One bite at a time.” Glad you’re part of the Clever Girls Collective.

  7. NicoleYeary Says:

    Paige – I relate to this, as I do with many of your posts…in my own way. Most days, it’s hard to get out of the house, unless you have a reason to. It’s a challenge to schedule tasks, make a to do list, etc. In my classes we talk about having a board of advisors… one boing a Coach: motivator who you fear you will let down if you don’t follow through. When we have a ‘day job’ we have a coach (boss) and working for yourself, it is your client – but outside filling obligations and responsibilities, we can become stale in life. A couple days ago I walked instead of taking a cab, giving me time to reflect, and unwind; and I felt great. I luv that you shopped the sale rack…and won! …and I luv the comment from the little girl who reminds us what it’s like to be carefree – balance is zen.
    Last, I’m equally inspired by Gini and I’m glad you became a CG: I had a feeling it would be a good fit. =)

  8. Nicole Yeary Says:

    Paige – I relate to this, as I do with many of your posts…in my own way. Most days, it’s hard to get out of the house, unless you have a reason to. It’s a challenge to schedule tasks, make a to do list, etc. In my classes we talk about having a board of advisors… one boing a Coach: motivator who you fear you will let down if you don’t follow through. When we have a ‘day job’ we have a coach (boss) and working for yourself, it is your client – but outside filling obligations and responsibilities, we can become stale in life. A couple days ago I walked instead of taking a cab, giving me time to reflect, and unwind; and I felt great. I luv that you shopped the sale rack…and won! …and I luv the comment from the little girl who reminds us what it’s like to be carefree – balance is zen.
    Last, I’m equally inspired by Gini and I’m glad you became a CG: I had a feeling it would be a good fit. =)

  9. Kitbrauer Says:

    I renew my invite. Come spend a weekend in NYC; it’ll be good to see you. 🙂

  10. Gabriel Says:

    The next time I find a glass of Crystal Light in my hand, I’ll make sure I remember to toast to you, and the tiny increments all.

  11. Joel Hughes Says:

    You’ll be fine. It’s always the little things that brighten my day and outlook on life- the tastes, sights, and sounds that life offers are amazing and it’s easy to forget about them. A good song. A good beer. A perfect latte. A good meal. These are things that can bring you right back. There’s one line in particular in this post that made me want to write this comment: “…played with my kitten — just to play with her, not to take pictures I could tweet later.” This is key. As hyper-communicative as you seem to be, don’t forget to just take stuff in with no intent of re-broadcasting. Great blog, btw.

  12. Anonymous Says:

    Aw Paige, sometimes your oxygen is my air. I’m usually the one telling people to slow down and breathe in life. Thank you for reminding me to take my own advice. Even though we don’t occupy the same geographical space, you know all of my digits and if I thought it would help, I would beg you to use them when you are feeling isolated!

  13. Nywordsmith Says:

    What a relief to find out I’m not the only one who has a hard time with the isolation of freelancing. At my busiest last winter, I was miserable. And there’s nothing as satisfying as completing a to-do list.

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